Wednesday, December 27, 2006

White Christmas


Or at least the Day After the Day After Christmas..

It doesn't happen too too often, but sometimes it does. And it did today, after an unseasonably warm and sunny Chanukah. Amazing! Baruch Hashem!!







Squeakers took one step outside, looked around, and bolted back into the (relative) safety and warmth of the trailer.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Three little girls stared into a dumpster...


Dear Dr. Tucker,

In our last session, you suggested that I blog in order to get in touch with my feelings about the dead horse I saw in the dumpster here in Bat Ayin yesterday. And then you subsequently, with a chilling nonchalance, dropped the bomb-- James Brown was dead. And suddenly, that little dead horse in the dumpster, whose momma kicked at it and wouldn't let it suckle at her breast, that little sweet brown horse- let's just say it's of a different color now.

For was it not the Godfather of Soul at whose Breast of Funk I myself suckled when my spirit flagged? First at the Trump Casino in Atlantic City (1994), and then at Mariners' Hall in San Francisco (1999)? Was it not the glory of his glistening mane that inspired my ill-fated gelled coiffs in the days of my wild youth? Was it not James Brown himself who, when kicked by a mother of a society that just couldn't hold his light, couldn't offer him the sweet nurturing he needed, jumped up, shouted "Hey!" and let us know that "This is a Man's World?" (so to speak)

That dead little horse in the dumpster is now my only link, out here on this hill, thousands of miles from the birthplace of Soul, with a man whose refusal to stay down, refusal to be peacefully led off the stage of life taught me that, no matter how hard it gets, no matter how cracked up you might feel, you always got a brand new bag in which to reach, to pull out some vessel filled with that sweet nectar of life.

You know about bags, Dr. Tucker, and their power. Have a donut for me. On me. And join me in remembering one of our legends.

You ask how I feel?

I feel good.... I knew that I would. Hey! Ow!


Friday, December 22, 2006

Between the Cracks

This is me and Kirvaya Maayan Newman at Rav Daniel and Batya Kohn's house last night, having a time of it at the first post-wedding Sheva Brachot for Jacqui and David Fuchs. David Fuchs was my roommate. Now he's Jacqui's roomate. I look goofy in this shot, because I have to make weird faces when being photographed, otherwise my eyes end up all cocked or closed, as can be seen in a rough shot at the bottom of this post. Below is the amazing Avraham Eliezer and some other folks I know, dancing at Sarah and Pesach's wedding last month. Parts of Pesach are at lower left.

So much happens between posts that doesn't make it onto the blog. When inspiration strikes, I'm usually too tired or occupied to post. When I take a moment to post, I usually forget what was so inspiring. I think I let the crappy signal affect me too much, use it as an excuse not to blog. Also, there's the ever-present tension between blogger and reader; the need for an active readership to make the blog feel alive, and the need for a dynamic blogger to keep the blog readable.

By the way, what happened to that Anonymous gal from a few posts back. I think I bugged her out with my "family restaurant" comment.

For now, here's a bit of a tale of prayer-

My friend Big Viv sent me some notes to put into the Kotel (Western Wall). So I went there to pray Mincha (afternoon prayer) right before the wedding of my roommate David Fuchs. We were both dressed up all snappy for the event. The Chabad guys were there with a wagon of Tefillin, and I hadn't wrapped that morning, so I started sifting through the cart for a lefty arm tefillin. I wrapped, said Sh'ma Yisrael and started taking off the tefillin when a secular Sefardi guy in his 40s came up and asked me if he could wrap too. I almost told him that I wasn't working there, and then I realized what a great opportunity had been placed in my hands.

He rolled up his sleeve, and I wrapped the straps on his arm, and placed the tefillin on his head, leading him in all the blessings along the way. I looked around- Another secualr guy with his kids, all wearing the paper Kippot they have for Kotel visitors. Two Ethiopian soldiers, wearing the nylon kippot that Chabad provided (I confess-- I was wearing my black Kangol for wedding styles, with no Yamicha under, so I too wore a white nylon bar-mitzvah kippah borrowed from the cart). It really hit me-- Jews come to the Kotel, and they want to pray. They want to connect to God and the Tradition. They come up to the Chabad cart and shyly ask for help partaking in a ritual that our people have been performing for millennia. They want to re-link to their People and our ways (re-link is the meaning of the Latin relegere--from which we get "religion--" or so I read once, though there are other opinions). To wrap tefillin on the arm and head of a grown man is a profound way of sharing the beauty of Jewish heritage. He approached with such purity and simplicity- a small request-- could he, too partake in the Mitzvah? Could he, too, be a part of the chain?

After that, I went to pray. I was standing maybe four feet from the Wall, swaying and making noises and crying out and muttering and scrunching up my face and moaning and maybe even wailing a bit, and I noticed this kid come up on my left and kiss the wall, as many of us do (don't call it idolatry- even if it is). He leaned against the wall a while, and I closed my eyes again and continued praying. At some point I opened my eyes again, and saw the kid, leaning against the wall facing me and staring at me-- clearly in utter rapture at my beatific glow and my saintly devotions to the Lord.

Or he'd never seen someone make such funny faces before.

Since I was sticking notes in the wall, which I never do-- I think pilgrims and tourists do that more than regulars-- I decided to write my own little note. My third one ever, which said the same thing as my famous Notes in the Wall from 1987 and 1998, except this time in Hebrew, and with a bit more qualification to avoid undesired consequence.

I would tell you about the guy who cleans up the fallen notes at the Wall, but it might be too harsh for public consumption.
_____
Take note of the new chapter name and number.

God Willing, it looks like our drought is going to end-- the sky has been decidedly unlcear today. This winter has been way too sunny and blue-skied.

*Note on the etymology of Religion: Forget it-- I had read that "re-link" thing years ago, but a little bit of Googling suggests that everyone has a different answer for the origin of the word. I am not going to do deep research now, but at least we all now know it's complicated

Friday, December 15, 2006

Just wanted to light it up..

Happy Chanukah, friends.
Be well, and be in touch!

Monday, December 11, 2006

The month of sleep and dreams

The Hebrew month is Kislev, the month of Sleep, the month of Chanuka, the month of dreams. My Chanukiah (Menorah) is already out and ready to go. Last year I made the glorious switch to oil, which is standard among the observant Jews... I highly recommend it, for a more tactile, hands-on Chanuka experience.

In our Torah readings this month, Yaakov sleeps and dreams of the ladder, Lavan dreams, Yosef dreams, Pharaoh dreams. Stuie has not been dreaming too too much, but I have been sleeping a lot, and feeling quite indolent. I would like to blame the winter, but then again, it hasn't been so cold yet, and to assume that the winter makes me indolent would suggest that I have another couple three months of indolence ahead of me.

Then again, I was indolent in the summer, so ya can't really blame the cold.

As far as waking dreams, it's kinda funny (ha?) that a guy who fantasizes about doing everything in the world is so afflicted by (indulgent of) indolence... I'm sort of a young Walter Mitty (check your 6th grade English textbook for sources on that one).

Then again, the fact that I would fear general ignorance as to the identity of Walter Mitty perhaps speaks of the indolence of an entire generation.

Huh. Too much to think about.
Or too much about which to think, really.

For the real action, check the 3-way commenting blitz on the previous post. Silly.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

WanderingWho?



Oy.
It's a bit challenge for me to know if to blog, what to blog, why to blog, when I am feeling less than shparkletacular, you know? Do my friends and fans and critics care to hear my whining about having a mid-level cold, being confused about romantic endeavors, feeling lifeless, godless, clueless, aimless? Have they heard enough of that? Does it belong on a blog? Does it belong on this blog?

The thing is, the blog needs quality content and consistent posting, otherwise folks will get bored or will stop checking in. So, if I am moody for a few weeks, and decide not to post, people will drop the blog from their regular surfing routine, and I lose readers. But if my moping is off-putting or just plain dull, folks will become uninterested, even sick of it, and will quit The 'Stu outright.

Upon reflection, I have been told that I make great company even when I'm being cruddy, and I've also been told that my writing is good enough even on a not-so-good day, so perhaps I have decided that it is better to blog depression, than to not-blog depressed.

So here it is.

I'm sick, I feel crappy. I don't know what the hell I'm doing, and whatever it is, it's not flowing so well. I'm listening to Willie Nelson (thank God).

Little things I should have said and done; I just never took the time-- but you were always on my mind....

Here's some pics I found ages ago and just love, and wanted to share.