Lukas, who is a cousin of Craig's, and an initiate into Native American ritual, asked me a question, which is to be found as the sole comment to the previous post. Sometime soon he will sit with his brothers and sisters around the sacred fire, eat the medicine and seek communion with the One Who Is, Was and Will Be, and with the ancient wise grandfathers who walked the paths of life before him.
Here's part of my answer to him:
Here's part of my answer to him:
-fire.
fire
fire in my soul.
a focused, burning, clarifying fire that would sear away all the years of stagnation and calcification that has clogged the machine.
fire in my soul that drives my mind and body to strive eagerly for perfection, holiness, strength.
or
a simple joy.
a simple joy that simmers at the bottom of my soul like a sweet autumn potpourri, fragrant and warm in any situation.
or
a journey.
a trip back to 1979 to meet a little five-year old sitting in his room and playing quietly, probably already overwhelmed with thoughts and notions of being different, already a little freaked out by his dad, sitting on the floor and creating worlds of escape and adventure on his floor. i would go back and watch that little guy play, then give him a big hug, shed a few tears with him, and give him something, some sort an amulet to let him know how much the world is waiting for him, how excited we are for him to grow up and to be happy, happy little Shimshon Stuart Bennett Siegel, international superstar.
Aho.
3 comments:
maybe we can pray for a little fire for your soul while at the same time supporting luke and his needs... But I don't know if we can go back to 1979. Too much bad hair anyway!
dear stu
thank you for some real good words. i don't feel as if i participate enough in your blog. i really enjoy it. at times it becomes a topic of conversation for wendy and myself. we really support the the effort you are making in your life. at times it is a real good source talk for craig and myself as well. you have and still make an a good impact in alot of lives here in the states. even though you are all the way in israel. sometimes it dosn't feel that far away.
love, faith, hope, and charity
lukas jazz asher sherzer
p.s. sorry if my questions are too vague sometimes but the answer is what i need.
I think that's great. And while it feels unnatural for me to participate in these comments, I do it anyway since you seem to like it. I think that the idea of journeying back to visit your five year old self is wonderful and beautiful. I've found, that even though i've grown up, and become the person I am today, that I am, in essence, so true and similar to the person I was when I was 8. So, I think that that is something that has grounded me. Pictures and family stories help in that adventure, but maybe you just need to feel out that 5 year old, who dosn't totally know what's ahead for him and see how connecting to that might be. I have often thought of things like that, and if I had brought an amulet back to my younger self what would it be. I don't remember noticing anything at the time. Who knows. I'm rambling, and I don't know what you should be doing really, but I am glad that you haven't stopped the search. So many people just end up stagnant, myself included, but your urge to forage on into your own wilderness separates you with that.
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