It was a hard Shabbat, well at least the last few hours; nice evening, dinner at Rav Natan's house with 8 of the 10 kids and a few guys from the Yeshiva. This morning I slept in, didn't davven, read a little, then had a chat with Didi and ate lunch with one of the local families. All quite pleasant. In the afternoon, i was groggy after a nap, my learning partner didn't show up, I couldn't focus, and the blech fell nicely back into place, and I just wanted to utterly vanish, so I went out to the woods to do some Hitbodedut (pouring out the soul to the Big One in the Sky), and shed ample tears and said some pretty harsh things to the Lord, arriving at the conclusion that I'm a frickin' decent guy, and I go out for justice and compassion and all that shit that Isaiah talks about, even when no one else seems to care. Then I got hit by lightning.
Just kidding.
But anyhow, the point of the post is to thank all those folks out there who, having read the last post or not, wrote nice things to me in the past 28 hours, shared their joys, pains and big ideas, and reminded me that I got me some love in this world, even if not enough of it is currently coming directly from me, God or some foxy Israelite princess with a sharp tongue and insinuating eyes.
Thanks.
Just kidding.
But anyhow, the point of the post is to thank all those folks out there who, having read the last post or not, wrote nice things to me in the past 28 hours, shared their joys, pains and big ideas, and reminded me that I got me some love in this world, even if not enough of it is currently coming directly from me, God or some foxy Israelite princess with a sharp tongue and insinuating eyes.
Thanks.
2 comments:
dear stu
when i go to pray somewhere, i say what i have to about everyone and everything else first. sometimes it could be all week, all night or all day. or maybe a few seconds. whatever the length or quality of what i say or do think, feel, act, express at the end i remember me. and then I think "is that being selfish?"?? i just put forth care and concern for someone else and at the end i thought only about myself. but if i don't take care of myself then how would i be able to care for others???
then i remember being human even though i've been alienated by them and myself. going alone to different places and join up with people who are like me. and then leaving again. life could be full of regrets.but it isn't.
you see stu, the problem for me is when i just talk it might come out like crap or something worht while.i don't know. just like nike says "just do it". or the the imortal words of yota " BE MINDFUL"
i wonder what the difference is between profound and profane. just becouse i sit and listen to leaders of what ever they think they lead and they say stuff to be "profound". but by they end of it it 's more like a pile of hourse mnaure, or "profane". the lies and b.s. just spew forth like a fountain.
IS SAYING SOMETHING "PROFOUND" LIKE SAYING SOMETHING "PROFANE"??
OR BEING "PROPHETIC" IS LIKE BEING "PATHETIC"??
the wording might be wrong but i hope you get the idea.
articulateing isn't my strong point. take care see you soon.
lukas ja sherzer
Through sheer luck, or the raw HEMI power of web search engines, I found your blog today.
I wasn't sure I'd ever find you again, but there you are.
I will write you an e-mail this evening.
"Grasp the passion, as much, as soon, as possible."
You gave me that advice almost 11 years ago when I was lost and without direction. Somehow, I found my way, or at least a way.
Anyway, stay strong, keep stuing.
I hope you write back, my feet don't smell so bad anymore.
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