I was in a classic stuart mood last night, really down and on the verge, and Ariel Elisha (the Clown Prince Prophet) was cutting into me in his violent and loving way of Holy Guidance and Truth, and we were arguing about the Force (a very very common topic here at Bat Ayin). And just as I remembered that:
So I did. And started watching it, after breaking down in my room in the dark and crying for 10 minutes, and missing an international phone call in the process-- (who called??? call back!)
I tell you, that flick is good. Real good. This time I even got into the simple populist beauty of the Ewoks and their triumph against modernity and oppression, rather than thinking that they were a bunch of dumb Chewbacca terds with dull spears and grotesquely big lips. But most of all, I was deep in Anakin and Luke's struggles against the Dark Side. And after seeing last summer's Episode III, I really did feel the full weight of Darth Vader's pain, the ultimate darkness that must have been in the heart of broken, broken Anakin.
And when Luke says, "I'm going to save you," to Anakin, and he replies, "You already have," then dies, I lost it. Man, oh man. I shed some Star Wars tears for sure.
I still wasn't fully convinced that the Force "loves" us, and that it isn't a neutral presence. But I do know that the whole inyan (Hebrew for "the core esssence" or something like that) of Luke is that he will do anything for his friends, even kill. And it is that love, and his faith, not in God or the Force, but in his father's capacity for the same love, that saves the day.
The day? Hell, it saves the whole durn galaxy.
Go watch Return of the Jedi again-- then give someone you love a big fat hug.
a) I had been thinking earlier about watching Return of the Jedithat Tzadik and prophet asked, "you wanna borrow the disk?"
b) Ariel Elisha just got the triology on DVD in the mail from mom,
So I did. And started watching it, after breaking down in my room in the dark and crying for 10 minutes, and missing an international phone call in the process-- (who called??? call back!)
I tell you, that flick is good. Real good. This time I even got into the simple populist beauty of the Ewoks and their triumph against modernity and oppression, rather than thinking that they were a bunch of dumb Chewbacca terds with dull spears and grotesquely big lips. But most of all, I was deep in Anakin and Luke's struggles against the Dark Side. And after seeing last summer's Episode III, I really did feel the full weight of Darth Vader's pain, the ultimate darkness that must have been in the heart of broken, broken Anakin.
And when Luke says, "I'm going to save you," to Anakin, and he replies, "You already have," then dies, I lost it. Man, oh man. I shed some Star Wars tears for sure.
I still wasn't fully convinced that the Force "loves" us, and that it isn't a neutral presence. But I do know that the whole inyan (Hebrew for "the core esssence" or something like that) of Luke is that he will do anything for his friends, even kill. And it is that love, and his faith, not in God or the Force, but in his father's capacity for the same love, that saves the day.
The day? Hell, it saves the whole durn galaxy.
Go watch Return of the Jedi again-- then give someone you love a big fat hug.
9 comments:
the timing of this post is interesting. jonah just finished writing a star wars adaptation called "Jen Wars: The Marriage of the Century" capturing the epicness of our wedding journey and making some of my nuttiness into humor, and combining our friends who have listened to me complain about bridesmaids, and dress colors, and zennias or hydrangeas.
i'll e-mail you the script, it's right up your alley.
and just remember, the force may be strong with you, but if something else isn't solid, then you can be swayed to "the dark side"
but, my mom just believes anakin became darth vadar becuase he was taken away from his loving mother at too early an age. that's my mom for you.
i'll cease this rant of a post, but love the star wars emotion.
so y do i get runty pathetic hugs?
{sigh}
You sure are doing a lot of crying lately.
yes, my conspiratorial friend. but the real question is- have you?
or, to be more grammatically consistent--
ARE you?,
It's interesting that you write about this topic. I spend several blog entries writing about Anakin and his transition into Darth Vader. It has a lot of relevance to someone who has become religious or who has gotten in touch with his religious roots, but life's heartbreaks make him deny what he deep inside believes is true, shattering his vessel and having him act in ways which are against his true nature, only to in the end do teshuva and return the the proper ways of living.
only on the inside.
a movies is just a movie sometimes.
lukas ja sherzer
much to say on star wars and spirituality, but in the meantime i'll just agree that the o.g. trilogy is underrated...for proof of this obsession, please see email. (yes i made it myself. yes that barbie in tefillin pic can kiss it...)feel free to post accordingly.
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