actually, don't
but be aware the blog is undergoing another chapter transition. (as if you had even noticed the first transition from Jerusalem --> Into the Hills)...
the period known as
WanderingStu, Chapter II: Taking it Higher
>>the Judean Hills rise up once again in the mind of the reader
as a place of revelation, confusion and redemption<<
as a place of revelation, confusion and redemption<<
in which this young man was described thusly:
The boy struggles to become a man by abandoning the safe path of success and affluence, returning to his soul's root to therein find Oneness and self.
OR: Stu flips out again and runs to the hills to live in a trailer park with a bunch of nutty chasids who don't eat enough meat.
Either way, it's gonna be a good time- no jacket required.
... is over.
i reckon i very well might find myself in the hills again, soon enough,
but the framework has been changed. perhaps imperceptibly, but changed nonetheless, at least from my side of these 2 eyes.
enjoy the ride.
2 comments:
Dear Stu,
I'm very envious of your travels. My dad and I talk of the places you have been. I was wandering how much in "awe" you must be in. I think of you as the guy to high five while going down the road in another car.
Q: Is abandoning the safe road only way to become a man or woman? Is it the same way to become an adult?
I struggle with that question. I myself think of life as one big risk. A sure thing is shooting fish in a barrel.
I'm having fun making snowballs in R.I..
"I might be going to hell in a bucket baby but at least I'm enjoing the ride. RIDE! At least I'm enjoing the ride." GD
Sweating sunday will think of you and your love ones Stu.
Lukas J.A. Sherzer
ladies, listen up.
The truth is the following. I also thought of leaving bat ayin after I spent a few days in jerusalem, one part of which you were there for. I did shabb with yosef needleman and friends. then went to that huge party that you quite foolishly missed, as usual.
that was hot. then that night hung out with shaul all night till 5 in morning, at josh's dad's place. we came back to shlomo'sville and hung out for hour. then back to yosef and friends, then to pills at pharmacy, then back to ami and friend's to get phone and glasses, then back to the Bat A.
Then realized i didn't want to be there. why? tzimtzum too great. then rav natan sat me down, "maybe you should think if you want to leave and perhaps come back another point in time."
thought for two days, then said "no, i here now."
then learning has improved tremendously.
MORAL OF STORY>
No bat ayin isn't the solution, but it's a neccisary period of hard work and believing in ourselves and overcoming our yetzirs through the avodah of working out the details of seemingly insignificant articles from hebrew past. it is a time to become strong, to be realigned. it is not a period of inspiration, only in davvening we inspired. that is what the nature of why we are here, to totally immerse in what we have here. then when we do go out into the world, as you have done so prematurely due to your foolish trip with your mother, we are prepared and ready to tackle the biggest problem in our life: namely, us.
Thereby dear stu you are making a foolish course of descisions that is only giving in to your yetzir hara completly, accepting the parts of it that tell the truth and taking all the nasty give up on self shit that comes along with it cause that's part of the package. this is what you call "a vacation."
Going to party on wednesday means you have to do make up homework on friday to get back on track by monday. but there's no way you'll do that so on friday you party, saying "will fix it all sunday morning, have nice solid cup of coffee, and knock the thing out.
But sunday morning you lollygag at home all day and go for nice walk.
then monday comes and God, who exists, says "where's the homework?" and then you got your self cause in a trap. that's what it is, a trap.
"will he finish what he begins?"
-yoda speaking to spirit of obi wan regarding training of luke
rosen
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